Hopelessness.

In my previous blog, I discussed how God intervened when I least expected it, as many things in my life weren't going as planned. In today's blog, I'll share some of the unfortunate events I've experienced.

A few years back, I decided to start dating. This is where I went wrong. It wasn't the act of dating itself, but rather that I lacked a goal or expectation for it.

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This is why, when we began dating, it seemed pointless to me; I'm unsure how he felt. I believe this is why he chose to end the relationship. After that, I decided not to date anymore. In fact, I thought I would never date again.

As you can see, I'm petite. My small frame often leads people to assume I'm a high school student. With my youthful appearance and voice, it's challenging to convey that I'm older than they perceive. Consequently, I worried that finding someone my age to date and potentially spend my life with would be difficult.

Understanding that it could be challenging, I chose to dedicate all my time to God and my profession as an elementary teacher. I devoted myself wholeheartedly to my job and my spiritual duties by serving as a Sunday school teacher at my church, participating in the praise team band, being involved in the vocational Bible school annually, and striving to be an excellent teacher at the elementary school where I was employed.

Six years passed, and I remained single. I continued praying and hoping to meet someone. Yet again, I made a mistake. The Bible doesn't state that a woman who finds a husband finds a good thing. Instead, it says that he who finds a wife finds a good thing.

It's not my role to search; my husband should be the one to seek me out.

Once I understood this, I sought God's forgiveness and asked Him to take charge. If He wants me to marry, my husband will find me. If not, let His will prevail.

I kept living my life and serving God with all that I was, and then God sent my family friend, my brother-in-law, and my elder sister my way. Each of them started to plant the seed of being more ambitious in my life. They helped me understand all this while I've been comfortable where I was, which is why I wasn't able to spread my wings.

I followed their suggestion and prayed about it for several months. God began to reveal to me that my time in Nigeria was drawing to a close. He indicated that it was time for me to advance. I realized that the only two ways for me to leave Nigeria were through education or employment. Since I had no funds for schooling, I chose to pursue a job.

The only profession I'm skilled in is teaching children, so I began looking for teaching positions in various countries, including Canada, the United Kingdom, Korea, China, Japan, Thailand, and Vietnam. To enhance my resume, I completed courses on Coursera and watched videos on how to excel in interviews.

I spent an entire year interviewing for jobs, receiving over 100 rejection letters and emails. I was on the verge of giving up when, just a few days before my birthday in September, I got scammed.

This was the moment my thoughts began to turn against me. I doubted that God had truly given me signs to leave the country. I believed what I was attempting was impossible and could never be achieved. I felt that leaving the country wasn't meant for me and that I would never succeed in life.

For several nights, I cried myself to sleep. I would wake up during the night, worshiping God and praying for the people who scammed me, asking for their forgiveness from both God and myself. I felt awful, not because it was my money that was taken, but because it belonged to my father. It was the money he had given me to use to Japa( leave the country).

Not only did I feel miserable, but I also felt foolish for falling into the scammers' trap. However, everything works out for good for those who love God.

God hadn't finished with me yet.